addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
stop making me hate you
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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everything's never good enough. it's never been "that was really good!" fullstop. it's always "you SHOULD HAVE" done this, "why didn't you" do this. or at MOST.. at the VERY MOST "that was good BUT".
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i'm so sick of this. sixteen years and counting of such shit. don't give me the "it's for your own good". i don't give a damn what the fish is for my own good. i have NEITHER freedom to NOR freedom from. i.e- no freedom! i do not have freedom to make decisions in my life so please remind me again, WHY is this MY life?
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i wonder why the hell i try so hard to make you proud. FOR GOODNESS SAKES. you know how long it took me to get myself back up on my feet? to finish things feeling proud of MYSELF? and it's all because of you. because you raise the bar so high that NOBODY ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH will be able to reach it. or maybe it's the people who get 7A1s and gold medals. go make THEM your kids then.
boliao
don't you dare criticize me for being a perfectionist. because you know what? the REAL perfectionist is YOU. YOU want ME to be perfect. but NOBODY CAN BE FREAKING PERFECT.
people
SOONER OR LATER you will see how much hurt you inflict. i don't give a damn if you read this or not. because i am so freaking TIRED. of having to go through this over and over again.
will read
you wanna know why i love training so much? because it's only those few hours of the day that i have freedom to whack as hard as i like, and freedom from YOU.
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